dec23

'everyone in your life is going to hurt you at some point in time, you just have to figure out who's worth the pain. '

i'm still hurting, but your still worth it.

lightsoff.

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired
it's you that I'm missing
it's like my brain is wired up
and there's a glitch in my system
you're like a drug and now my blood won't stop itching
I'm in critical condition
someone let me out of this prison
it's like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I'm on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me c r a z y

That's why it feels like
losing you is like somebody just
turned all the lights off
won't somebody, anybody
please just turn the lights on
I won't take one step
I can't see what's coming next
losing you is like somebody just
turned all the lights off
can't see at all
cause it's like somebody just turned all the lights off

I don't understand how one minute I just had it all
now I can't reach you cos I'm tied up
with this straight jacket on
I can't b r e a t h e
I can't see
it's like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I'm on a merry-go-round
going around, driving me crazy

Used to see my world in color
when you left me it's like my world turned gray
turn my winter into summer
why won't you help me turn night to day
I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think at all
honestly it feels like I ain't living no more
can't say no more, can't see no more

well hello again.

well,
it's been a while.
okay longer than a while. i haven't blogged in timeeeeeee.
i think the last was like summer?
w/e. it's nearly like christmas now,
and idk what to say, theres too much to say really.
so many things have happened since school started,
holy i don't even know where to begin.
actually, i'm not gonna go there.
there's literally not enough space or time to write it all out.
all i can say is, highschool is nothing like i expected.
you'd never think how quickly you can become close to people,
and how quickly you can loose them too.
like you've gone through an entire friendship cycle with someone in just a few months.
so many things have changed, and i'm starting to dislike it. alot.
nothing can stay good for a while. it was all good when we didn't know much about eachother,
and everyone was pretty much happy. i swear we walk around like zombies nowadays,
just waiting for the say to be over. but w/e , it's the holidays now.
i really needed the break more than ever.
i can't complain with a lot of things though. earlier this school year i got a lot of things off
my shoulders, finally. and i'm doing just fine without it, i'm a lot happier.
now there are other things to deal with, but i'm just living life day by day,
no other way to do it ahaa
it was so good for that time being, it's like i had it all together.
and i still can't let go.
but for the most part, all i can say is
i tried.

bye summer ?

So , i'm bored .
i haven't written in a real long time , again ?
and summer's almost over .
basically , everything's been fun . the weather started to get better ,
(figures , towards the END of summer .)
honestly . i'm really pissed that i haven't even been swimming LOL !
or to a beach ... i'd kill for a beach right now . D:
I've been WoWing a lot though ... lmfao oh man .
orientaion waaaas , um good ? i don't know i just know it didn't exactly help with the whole navigation part - which is gonna be my problem LOL .
i cannot get to each class within five minutes ( y ) fml
yeah so highschooooool , true :S
i don't know what to think - whatever .
i just really need to get my sleeping patterns normal again ?
eugh , i'll continue this ... sometime

raaaaain

so , i love this weather .

no not really , i much prefer sunshine and warmth -.-

right now its thundering so loud my house is like shaking ,

but i love hearing it . the sound of storms is like a lullaby to me 

it's the best . (: anyways , honestly today it was hot sunny and

humid one minute and like hurricane the next ? 

and repeated that like 3 times . i sound like a weather forecaster 

but im really sick of it , i waaaant suuuummmer weather ! =(

yeeah so i found my henna from like 2 year ago ! aha i have like

4 tattoos now , what else is there to do honestly -.-

i want real ones though . (y) not now obv .

wooooooooh so i'm really bored , its okay to use a console when

its like hurricane weather ... righhhht ? LOL whatever i'm doing it anyway .

2am

here i am again , blogging in the AM's for idk what reason ?

i really can't sleep , im like wide awake LOL . again .

maybe dark chocolate ain't such a good idea before bed eeeeh ? ;D

lmfao . whatever it's summer , which just so happens to be half over ,

and the weather is so damn weird . it was hailing today like wtf !

anyways i've been xbox-ing more than usual lately . ALOT more than usual

ahah . only when it rains and shit , cause the second its warm im gone ! =D

i miss my bestfriend like mad , but it's not tooo long before she gets back ,

so yaaaay ! :D 

mmmm what elseee ... yeeah so i have three fake nails left .

DONT ask . yes they did stay on from friggen grad . >.>

bio gel = never again aha . i kinda miss the one on my right index

finger though , it made a good guitar pick ( y ) .

i love guitar honestly . last lesson this week ! but 

i'll sign up AGAIN for sure . plus i have like the best teacher ,

won't go to anyone else . WHY am i blabbing about this . -.-

im so bored . did i mention i have 7 mosquito bites on only my left leg ?

like what is this ! one limb is tastier than the other ? geeez .

anyways , im reeeally bored . but im sure you already knew that .

gaaaasp ! i never really blogged about downtown did i ...

well nothing that special i go all the time ,

but i got docs ! woooh . i've been looking for them for a while now ,

i had like 50 pairs when i was little , no lie ahah . they were patent

with rainbow laces ; every pair . (:

i love my new ones , they go with everything 'specially dresses and all that jaaaazzz .

i got a few more things like blahblahblah but whatever

no need to blooog . im so bored still !

i wish my dad never sold the fisheye lens . =( damn .

it was tiiiime ago but i guess he never really thought i'd want it .

eugh whateverrr .

i want my braces off . like i complain about them everyday , i friggen

hate them . i hope my smile looks alright after , like i hope all that 

was really worth it ahah . >.>

anyways , i should try to sleep . oh follow me on twitter , btw .

sorry for the boring ass post , you honestly just wasted your time LOL !

woooooooooh ,

aha kay so it's like 1am , but i can't sleep and i'm superduper boooored .
LOL i love how amazingly loaft i am with my blogspot ,
like i just slap a picture up there everytime instead of doing a whole helen marzec move. ;)
ahahah layout change everydaaaay girly .
well my summer's been getting a bit better pretty much cause the weather is nicer
and i can go out more ! =D finally geeez , not as boring .
i mean it wasn't bad before but i'd only go out like twice a week :/
i hate the rain . but yeah it's warm lately hope it stays that waaay ( y )
woooh i went downtown the other day . yeeeah i love it there ,
'cept it smeeells from all the dang garbage . =( and milica's ,
for the past two days LOL . saturday was live , i don't even know
but it was pretty sweet . yesterday too , we just chilled cause my mom was
working close by . idk why i'm blogging about this . >.>
im sooo bored . & hungry ? wow wtf LOL kbye