maybe i was wrong .

i can't say this isn't my problem ,
because i did more than stand by and watch everything
happen for the past - yes - almost year . 10 months ? 11 ?
and maybe i do wish i could turn back the hands of time and help you fix those problems , those things that are so much more clear now .
but even if i could ,
i wouldn't .
because you wouldn't be where you are now ; you wouldn't have the
kind of relationship you have now , you wouldn't know what you know now .
you wouldn't be strong .
and as much as i want to take away yourpain ,
at the same time i'd be taking away your strength .
you stuck it out for this long ,
that takes guts .
that takes faith . that takes what you've had in him all this time .
hope ; hope that one day he's gonna smack his head on something ,
turn the fuck around , and realize , what he has right in front of him .
what's been there from the start .
& i wish i could understand why he consistently throws it all away ,
for what ?
what does he have to lose but the most important person in his life ?
the one he " can't go a day without , "
the one he " trusts with his life , "
the one he loves .
i could never truly understand him if i tried ,
and all the decisions he's made .
from other girls at first , to not talking ...
and you , attempting to move on ... he wouldn't even let you do that .
your stuck ,
and that's unfair to you .
he's held you here for so long , got your hopes ^up ,
brought them _down ,
and still he won't let you go .
then he made a huge decision to keep it simple . stay as you were .
apparently he still couldn't live without you ,
and you couldn't live without him .
you both are nothing without each other ,
and he knows that . he feels that .
so enlighten me , someone , what is he doing ?
why does he continuously stall , make excuses like ' i dont want to hurt her '
then go and not talk to her for days at a time ?
that hurts , i'm sure he knows . and according to him that wasn't the plan .
so tell me , what is his plan ?
wait . keep that plan to yourself darling , cause last time i checked
your ' plan ' caused all this .
on a better note , the smarter half of you two has made a decision .
a break.
when everything crumbled , when no one knew what else to do ,
she said ; ' a break . '
honestly , i think that that's the best for the both of you .
time.
nothing heals like time , no ?