hellogoodbye -

i honestly cannot believe the school year is over. holy shit , grade eight ... it's gone . it went by so fast , i honestly couldn't keep up . so much happened , like too much ... it was all too much to take in , and the next thing you know your in a long black gown and fancy clothes , sitting there thinking about how your already a graduate . all the memories in that school ... damn . 10 years , it's been 10 years . i grew up there , that school raised me . good and bad , thick and thin , been through it all in that school , with everyone . i miss it like mad already , but in ways i don't . i wanted to leave but i didnt ... i don't even know . i'm still trying to get over the fact that it's over . everyone bawled like crazy on the last day , yes me too ... but for so many reasons . i think we all cried so much because at that moment it just hit us , and it hasn't even hit some people yet . some aren't even emotional about it , but hey i guess im pretty soft . it's hard not to be , i don't want to let go of it , because i know for sure that school kept us together . in high school , when we're free to go our separate ways , when we don't have to see the same people everyday , don't you think people will fall apart ? of course they will . the only reason most of us are still all together this year is because we have to see each other everyday , the school kept us together and everyone cared . high school makes you cold , people aren't going to care half as much or give two shits about your stupid drama ... basically , we're all going to go wherever we choose . we're going to find other interests and other people , and we might never be the same with those people that we were once so close to , and i seriously hate to say that . i dont think i will though . and it doesn't always happen on purpose either . other things ... idk . i really wish they would be like they used to . damn i miss the good old days , like last year . like i was just thinking , canada day is in like 2 days ... and last year ( around canada day )we were already having the best summertime ever ... we were all good & we spent our canada day doing the most fun things ever . now i'm thinking , it's not going to be anything like that this year . so much changed , i don't think we'll ever get another taste of that . fuck i miss it . i miss not worrying about everything all the time , being carefree . i looked forward to summer 09 thinking it would be like last year - missioning around , sitting on the curb eating freezies , jolt & sour belts . just little things like that that made summer the best . idk ... ugh . and somethings ... i don't even know . like i'm sorry , but your really an ass . it's the truth , and incase you forgot what i told you let me refresh your memory ; " she's a one in a million , your never going to find another like her ; she's amazing . don't let her go , or you'll loose her for good . " but of course you didn't listen . now look what you got yourself into . ugh im done with that . im tired of you . & greeeat , just to make my summer even better , my bestfriend will be half way across the friggen world the entire time . lovely , like i was looking forward to at least spending it with her . i had a lot planned & again i wanted it to be like last year . it was the best . damn i'm gonna miss her , i think i should just get a job since there's nothing else to do . & another one of my bestfriends is leavig also . laaaaaaaaaaaavely , no ? oh yes . i caaaaan't wait . so much for my summer ? yeah .