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that _sinking feeling in your chest really is real, isn't it?
and that t e a r i n g apart, inside you. like your being
torn from something. but in this case at least ;
someone.
you just can't take your mind off of it,
no matter how much you smile, or do something to keep you
occupied it's just always there, nagging in the back of your mind.
all your thoughts are infected, and it takes over your life day to day.
even though your here it's like your not, and it's killing me.
i could forget about you,
but something about you just won't let me let you go.
something about you has had me holding on through all of this,
no matter what you say i just keep running back to you.
and it's not even that charm you have.
it's deeper than that.
but i thought i understood you, actually i do understand you.
more than anyone else really does.
and you know it too .. did you forget about that?
& did you forget about how you didn't want to l o s e me?
well i kept my promise,
cause even after everything, i'm still here. and i always will be.
even if i don't mean what i used to to you.
i know that when everyone else in the world walks out on you,
i'll be walking in. cause i'm the only one that really tried to understand every word you say,
everything you do. your not shallow, your deeper than the ocean.
and some things are so far down i still can't see them.
and everything that's happening.. i' m not floating anymore,
nevermind swimming.
i'm drowning , and sinking slowly.
i'm lost and i don't even know where to go anymore, caught in your undertow.
i'm fine with friends, i guess. but why does it have to be like this?
so on and off , driving me crazy.
to be honest, with you 'good enough' and my name will never be in the same sentence.
why did it all end so fast?