fml ,

today ... was fucked .
yeah , it's my bf's birthday, and yeah it's our three months ,
which is great <3 ,
but fuck everything else about today .
& the end of yesterday .
... and this whole thing in general .
it's like i'm honestly under surveillance now ;
and need ' help ' . >:/ yeah okay .
i really thought things were getting better
and i could end this whole thing ... ?
then it blew up before i could .
i already couldn't control it , it wasn't really me anymore ,
making those 'descisions .' someone else that became me .
idk .
so now , do they really think i'm going to talk to some fucking
stranger about this ? don't bother wasting your time sweetheart ,
you're not getting a thing out of me .
do these people get paid for asking robotic questions to kids every single time ?
'cause i highly doubt i'm the only one that isn't gonna say shit .
aha yeah , about that , i'm not the only one either .
some i was like , ' kay i swear your good why are they putting you through that crap too ? '
the others , ' meh . idk . idc . '
they talked to me more than the others though , which was really ... idk frustrating
and weird . both your teachers , (who also both called your parents) ,
lecturing you and telling you they're 'concerned' ,
and how one of them almost called friggen 911 . idk ugh .
wow i'm really blabbing .
anyways , i honestly hate hearing the same stupid thing over and over and over again ,
and in the same friggen day too , from four different people ... kay maybe more .
' no quebec for you if this doesnt change / you seek help '
yeeeeeah .
idk probably going to vent more about this later ,